Friday, June 18, 2010

My feet feats ...

I was out for awhile from running in my favorite playground.
     I remember when I started running in GBP 3X a week when I was still super husband was amazed by my improvements whenever we had our weekend runs.....those were some of my fondest memories when I was just starting to run.

Yesterday, after that long 18 days. The weather is nice and hubby is on rest day for his softball game- so I was given the chance to finally get my feet to run. Hongestly, though I wanted to run the past 18 days....something holds off- I don't want to run in my playground....not yet. Because, Hours before my first full marathon - something happened to me that make me feel depressed.
Running the full marathon the following day helps me relieved of some pain....but it didn't go away.....then I decided to do half-marathon the following week after my full, hoping to make me feel better.

Days prior Natures Valley I decided to contact Sir Jovie to claim my 1000km finisher shirt and finally get to meet him. I was hoping that these small achievements in my running life will ease the pain in my heart. All the excitements and happiness seemed temporal.
All those achievements seemed not to help me....but I kept my silence....I cannot write....I cannot visit my FB....I just feel alone and unhappy. This is terrible for me considering it is my birth month....I felt like a loser...and this person who did wrong to me won the game.

While I was running yesterday.....the gift of good hormones finally dawned upon me. I was able to reconcile myself. Become proud of what I have accomplished.....I know mine was just a baby steps perhaps....but it helped me a lot. One surprising article from Sir Jovie of  BaldRunner helped me uplift my spirit.

I realized way back- someone asked from a blog (I can't remember the blogger anymore)....are there lonely runners? Well, I guess there is....I am when I cannot run.

After yesterday's run- I know I was healed. I have forgiven the person. But the act, perhaps I cannot forget. Being victim of discrimination is really very difficult especially because I am a woman. Women are perceived weak....but my inner soul screamed that I am strong, capable and must be treated with equal rights.

Running help me keep my sanity. Running makes me feel that I am strong. I know I am good in this sport- maybe not the best.
My feet feats says....I am a marathoner, though I consider myself newbie but nobody can take it away from me.


  1. Hi! You're a marathoner, and no one can take that away from you. It is just one of the many things running can bring to us. If you're a newbie, how much more can I call myself then? I can only run as much as 10K in 1h 30min. I'm slow. In fact, slower than my girl. But, crossing the finish line gives me a fulfillment - that no one can take away from me.

  2. Hi CaptainRunner,
    Thanks for droppin' by. I consider myself newbie despite 3 yrs of running experience... and one marathon. I believe there is a lot to learn and I have not mastered them. Each run is a new experience for me. Finishing the race for whatever distance is a great feeling. Congrats on your feat!